I found out today that a close family friend passed away. It was sudden, unexpected, and heartbreaking. It really made me reconsider how precious life is, and how I should cherish every moment I have with my friends, family, and husband.
love you Kath!
Miss you guys!
Post wedding "reception"
I love my husband!
Awesome impromptu bachelorette party!
Grandparents and I on our wedding day
When something like this happens, it's difficult to know what to do. I know that I have responsibilities as a medical student, as a friend, and as a wife... and it's hard when those responsibilities don't see eye-to-eye. I'm here in the apartment with my thoughts, and my husband is heading home to give our condolences. I wish I could've gone with him, but the thought of trying to negotiate exam schedules and make ups (which likely aren't possible) is pretty inapproachable.
I walked around in a stupor most of the day, trying to make a good impression on my first day at a new clinic, but thinking I should be doing something. I got home and my immediate impulse was to bake
Remembrance Cookies (based on OSG Chunky PB Cookies)
- 1 1/8 cup spelt flour
- 1/4 cup organic cane sugar
- 1/4 tsp salt
- 1/4 tsp baking soda
- 1 tsp baking powder
- 1/3 cup semisweet chocolate chips
- 1.5 TBSP chunky peanut butter
- 2 tsp vanilla stevia
- 1/4 cup maple agave syrup
- 3.5 tbsp smart balance omega oil
1. Preheat oven to 350
2. Mix dry ingredients into one bowl (flour, salt, sugar, baking soda+ powder), mix wet into another bowl (PB, stevia/vanilla, syrup, oil).
3. Pour wet into dry and mix (you may have to use your hands)
4. Fold in chocolate chips
5. Mold dough into cookie shapes (mine made ~12 cookies)
6. Bake for ~11-12 minutes until slightly brown.
7. Enjoy with a prayer for a lost loved one.
I sent these cookies home with my husband with the thought:
These won't fix what has happened.
Life isn't all about smiles, and chocolate chips can't fix heartache. Time heals all wounds and if someone can spend even 5 seconds of time enjoying these cookies then that is one step towards healing.
My prayers are with the family and I hope you know I'm thinking about you in this incredibly difficult time.
Go hug a loved one,
Allie